So...ummm...yea...
I need to learn to listen to myself. i went off into this world unhealed and stumbled into another half ass relationship. i don't think i'm done with this one tho. even tho i'm currently single and all. i feel the need to play captain save a hoe. i want answers. i want the hurt to come out. i wanna know the root behind the problem. but most of all i want to fix him. or at least try. maybe we can just be friends? hmmm my bitter ass thinking i can just be friends with an "ex". that is a huge fucking improvement for me. you don't even understand.
i started writing carla's story. didn't get very far in but i started. that's a large ass accomplishment for me. this story has been on my heart for at least 5 years. yay me.
i guess i am doing better in some fucked up ways.
i thought i was gonna let myself have a heauxish phase in my life only to find out i don't have a heauxish bone in my body. i still wanna give it a try tho. yolo? not a good enough excuse? ok... i guess so.
what else? i wanna write about the background of the carla story before i actually put it up. cuz i'm planning on putting it up.
guess i'll just go do that. i need to go to bed. ugh.
this may be my shortest blog ever.
anyway.
deuce. chucked.
s_boo
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