I'm angry

I'm angry. I'm angry because you made this little thing we had super serious. Then you left. You disappeared and didn't even explain why. You just stopped calling back or responding to text messages. I'm angry because out of nowhere and from no hints on my part you said you loved me. Asked me to give you children. Now. Mind you I'm a senior in college and am not in the situation I want to be in where I start my family. But you asked. We talked about a future. A future I vowed I would never bring up again because everytim I start thinkin in the future tense my heart gets broken. I'm angry because you said all the right things and did the right things too. Had me thinkin i had finally found a guy I would spend the rest of my life with. I'm angry because I finally had a man and not a little ass boy. I'm angry because I thought we had potential and I had finally mentioned you to the parentals an you fuckin disappeared. Im angry because the head was the best head I had ever had and I thought I had already experienced the best. Im angry because you told me, not asked me, that i was your girl. You place us in a committed relationship and then ran away from it. But most of all I'm angry because I don't know what happened to make you run away. The keyword in this is I'm angry. Not hurt or sad or in pain. Just angry. I hadn't invested enough feelings yet to be hurt or in pain and I am grateful for that because I can't take another heart break. I saved my heart this time. But still, I'm angry!!