Let's start this post off like those meetings....
"Hi, my name is Sydney and I'm bisexual." ...... *waits for yalls response*
Anyway, I just felt the need to write on this topic. I'll keep in brief.
First of all, I first figured out I was bi when I was like 4. All I remember is that I was in Kindergarten. I had a "thing" with one of the girls. And while she probably has long forgotten that, I.... yea.
It really hasn't been until recently that I realized the fascination I had with the women on TV where really crushes. I was always aware I like girls in the real world, but TV was some different shit. I just don't understand why all my crushes were on white women: the pink ranger, Jennifer Love Hewitt, Alyssa Milano...
Moving on. Ok, so, in real life, I am a selfish muthafuppah. I'm an only child and I have a strange sense of entitlement because of that. HOWEVER, this does not relate to my sexuality. I, in this case, do not want to have my cake and eat it too. It's not like I'm hoarding dozens of sexy people in my basement and preventing others from getting them. How am I selfish because I know what I want? Is it because it doesn't coincide on what your views of how sexuality works? Sorry, your personal preference has nothing to do with my real life.
I did not choose to be this way nor can I just pick and choose what I want. "Hmmm, this morning I woke up with a strange craving for pussy...." No, not really. Don't work that way. Actually, my sexual desires are not way linked to who I am attracted to.
Of course, there are physical aspects of a person that attract me to them. I'm attracted to people that wear glasses more that I am people who have freckles. I'm attracted to men more than I am to women. I don't know how this shit works, I just know what I feel. For me, sexuality is fluid and bisexual is a label I use to keep folk from being confused. If I fall for a person, I'm not falling for their gender, I'm falling for them. I can't say I'm bisexual because I am equally attracted to both sexes. I'm not attracted to gender at all. Gender is a non-fucking-factor in my quest for the illustrious love I'm not sure I believe in, but that is another story.
Bottom line: if my sexuality confuses you, ask questions. Don't call me selfish, don't call me confused. I'm neither.
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